I’m back!

I’ve been gone for a while now. I’m not sure why, I guess I’ve just not been in the mood for blogging.

So anyway. Today I’ve had this feeling that its all gonna work out fine, and that I’ve finally found myself. I love that feeling.

I would say that the clothing style I’ve fallen for now is kind of hipster-ish. I love open, checkered shirts with black, basic tank tops or something under. And scarves!

I’m considering to go for a music career when I grow up. I play flute and guitar, and people have often said to me that “im gifted”. Plus, today I just really enjoy music, even more than usual.

So: what do you think? Music career or not? Let me know your thoughts. Because honestly; I don’t know what I wanna do when I grow up.

It’s gonna work out

Recently, it has felt like stuff is working out pretty good. I do homework, I play the flute a lot, I’ve actually recently begun playing guitar. It’s a lot of fun, I’ve played it every day since I begun now.

I feel like I’m finally starting to get a hang of things in my life. I don’t get stressed out because of all my spare time activities, and I get time to do homework and stuff like that. It’s such a relieving feeling to know that its all gonna work out.

I’m starting to think I may get through my junior high-years without totally freaking out. I’m not sure how long this feeling will last, though. Hopefully, for a long time…

Ugly-crying

Everything has been wrong lately. I feel like crying for no reason, or, no reason that I know. I’m starting to think I might be depressed, but I don’t want to think that.

I want to be one of the happy people. The girl that smiles and wears colorful clothes. Not the sad girl with dark clothes.

It started a couple of days ago. I’ve learned something through the past year: If my expectations for the day are high, I’m most likely gonna be disappointed. So, I decided to have low expectations that day too. And everything screwed up. I ugly-cried after a really sad movie we watched at school. It was really awkward, and I felt like shit afterwards. After that day, I’ve been really upset almost all the time.

Tomorrow I’m visiting a friend. I’m afraid I’m gonna be like this when I’m there, too. I don’t want her to think that I’m sad.

Is there any people out there who is depressed? I need to know if I’m heading in that directon too. And if I am, what might help.