Some topics I wanna discuss

Hey guys!

Fun fact about me: I don’t really like discussing. Someone always gets all triggered, someone might get pissed at each other, and my opinions are not strong enough to survive an intense discussion (or, so I think). I do have some opinions that other people can’t change, but I just can’t be bothered to try and make others understand or agree with me. What’s the point? I don’t really care if you disagree with me. I also don’t really care if I disagree with you. That is what it is, it’s not a matter of life or death.

So yeah, I’m not a big fan of discussions. I also do not have a lot of statistics and information ready on my computer for a hefty discussion. However, I kinda wanna discuss some topics with someone. Here’s a quick little list:

  • ¨Racism¨
  • ¨Feminism¨
  • ¨Equality¨

Okay so three things on the list. I have some thoughts and stuff about my views on these topics, and a lot of thoughts on people who share their opinions online. Also, notice how I put all the topics in the little ¨ signs? That’s because I know that different people define these words in different ways, which tends to annoy me (because the definition of them for some people are just plain stupid). For the record; not a whole lot of things actually annoy me, so consider it a special occasion when something does.

In conclusion; these are some things I wanna discuss. Whether I will discuss it in a forum/private chat with someone, or if I’ll write about them here, or if I will do nothing at all, only time will tell. I just wanted you to know I have opinions (if anyone wants to talk about the things, let me know!)

Stay happy, stay awkward

Update(?) from previous post

Hey guys! So first of all: I am sorry for taking so long to ¨update¨ you on the thing I wrote in my last post.

And now for the ¨update¨: I’m sorry to say that I don’t quite remember when things changed, nor how they changed. But things took a turn for the better. So now you know. I’m pretty sure it was because of that time of the month, because guess what: That mood shit’s real for some of us.

Short post, I know, but I juust felt like I had to keep my word.

Oh, and here’s some happy news: I’ve made a new friend! Or, this happened quite a while ago, but I haven’t updated you guys lately… Anyways, yeah, I’ve made a new friend, and he’s really nice and I feel like we have a very special friendship unlike any friendship I’ve ever had before. :3

Other than that, nothing new going on.

See ya!

Stay happy, stay awkward

My phobias

So, I’m actually supposed to do homework, but since I’m the person I am, I’ve been browsing the Internet for useless stuff all day. Suddenly, I figured out that I want to know what phobias I have, if I even hve any. So, I googled ¨phobias¨ and found a web site with many phobias. Many. Since there are so many phobias, you probably have at least one, so here’s the link to the website if you want to figure out your phobias as well. Okay, anyways, here are all the phobias I have:

1. Achluophobia- Fear of darkness

2. Acrophobia- Fear of heights

3. Agoraphobia- Fear of being in crowded, public places like markets

4. Aphenphosmphobia- Fear of being touched (or, this one depends on who the other person is…)

5. Arachnephobia or Arachnophobia- Fear of spiders (MOST DEFINETLY YES I HAVE THIS ONE)

6. Arsonphobia- Fear of fire (although fire also fascinates me.. I might be a psycopath…)

7. Asthenophobia- Fear of fainting or weakness (for me it’s weakness, I’ve actually had nightmares where I couldn’t lift something very light…)

8. Astraphobia or Astrapophobia- Fear of thunder and lightning

9. Athazagoraphobia- Fear of being forgotton or ignored

10. Auroraphobia- Fear of Northern lights (considering that I see the northern lights pretty often, I shouldn’t have this fear, but it just… creeps me out…)

11. Catagelophobia- Fear of being ridiculed

12. Catoptrophobia- Fear of mirrors (when there are many mirrors in one, small place… like dressing rooms in a clothing store… ugh…)

13. Claustrophobia- Fear of confined spaces

14. Coulrophobia- Fear of clowns

15. Demophobia- Fear of crowds (kind of the same thing as number 3)

16. Dishabiliophobia- Fear of undressing in front of someone (not sure how that’s gonna work out when I start doing… stuff… with someone… you know… that stuff…)

17. Ephebiphobia- Fear of teenagers (strange, considering I’m a teenager, right?)

18. Epistaxiophobia- Fear of nosebleeds (fun fact about me: I’ve never had a nosebleed before)

19. Insectophobia – Fear of insects

20. Katsaridaphobia- Fear of cockroaches

21. Obesophobia- Fear of gaining weight (however, sometimes I don’t care…)

22. Ophthalmophobia- Fear of being stared at (probably associated with number 3 and 15)

23. Pediophobia- Fear of dolls

(I removed number 24, which was fear of kissing, since I have now kissed someone and I am not afraid of it xD )

25. Sociophobia- Fear of society or people in general (again, associated with number 3, 15 and 22)

26. Thalassophobia- Fear of the sea

27. Topophobia- Fear of certain places or situations, such as stage fright (stage fright? YES)

28. Xenophobia- Fear of strangers or foreigners (OK, let’s just settle with ¨fear of people I don’t know¨, shall we?

So, those were 28 phobias. I mean, I probably don’t really have all those phobias. However, here’s what I’m very certain of: I freak out in crowded or tiny places, I absolutely HATE spiders, and dolls, clowns, the northern lights and the sea are thing I am NOT a big fan of…

What are your fears? Let me know in the comments, and I’ll talk to you later.

Bye 🙂

Claustrophobia, nervousness and Comfort zones

Hey guys.

Just so you know, I don’t really have claustrophobia, but I have panicked before when I was in a tiny room. Like, one time, in middle school, a couple of friends and I buried each other in the snow. So it was my turn, and my entire body was covered with snow, exept for my mouth and nose, for breathing. Suddenly, I just panicked. My friends laughed, because they thought I was joking, but I  actually started crying. I couldn’t get up either, because the snow was too heavy. So, when they understood that I was being serious, they got me out of thhe snow and hugged me. I can still remember the horrible feeling of not being able to get out of the pile of snow. It makes me really nervous to just think about it.

I get a similar feeling every time I do something embarrasing or have to stay in a place I don’t really want to be. For example: I’m not really a social person. I like hanging out with friends, but I also need some time alone each day, if not, I get this claustrophobic feeling. I’ve experiendced this probably too many times, but I’m still living.

Do you think it’s healthy to push yourself out of your comfort zone? I’m not so sure. I mean, it’s probably good for you to do little things, like raising your hand more often in class, or try and talk more to people who talk to you instead of saying mostly ¨yes¨ and ¨no¨. but when it comes to doing Things that makes you shake by  just thinking about doing them? I don’t know, at least for me, I don’t think it’s really a good thing. See, I just get really nervous, I panick and just want to lock myself into my room for the rest of the day. And I feel like crying. Sometimes I actually cry too. And it feels awful, because I’m crying about nothing. Nothing at all.

Do you ever feel like this? It would make me feel a lot  better if I knew that other people are like this too. I don’t really know why I wrote this post, I  just felt like I had to get this out of my system. Kind of grumpy today? Yep.

Well, see you next time. Or something like that, because we won’t see each other, but you know what I mean…


Bucket list

Hey guys! So, today I just felt like writing down some things I want to do in my life. I don’t know, I just felt like doing something different here. If you have something you want to do before you die or something like that, leave a comment. Enoy. 🙂

Things I want to do before I die:

1. Go on a hot air balloon ride
2. Go skydiving
3. Travel the world with a bunch of friends
4. Get really good at golfing (or at least try to…)
5. Go to a folk high school for a year (if you don’t know what it is, you can check out this link: )
6. Play in a band
7. Write a book (I also want to become a writer, so…)
8. Learn to like coffee (that’s what the cool people drink, right?)
9. Try exotic new food (although I’m really picky…)
10. Learn to surf (my balance level is basically zero)
11. Try water skiing (again, balance might be a little problem)
12. Dive in The Great Barrier Reef (even though the ocen scares me)
13. Celebrate thanksgiving in the USA (we don’t celebrate it here)
14. Try dog sledding
15. Travel a lot with my family
16. See at least one of the world’s wonders (plus many other great buildings and places)
17. Basically stop being such a wimp (stop being afraid of new things, become more impulsive etc.)

I hope you liked this list of things I want to do before I die. I hopefully have a whole lot of years left on this planet, so I’ll get a fair chance of doing some of these things.
Well, that’s it for now, I’ll see you later (not literary but yeah…)

Bye :3

Draft for short story or something… I don’t know….

BEFORE YOU READ: Hey guys. so I just got punched in the face by mr. Inspiration, so I just wrote down whatever my heart made up here. You can choose to read it, or scroll past it, but if you decide to read it, thank you, and please, let me know what you think of it. I haven’t even read through it myself yet, and I’m 100% sure that there are many spelling errors etc.

Be kind, and give me feedack on this little something. I don’t even know what to call it. it’s mostly for myself, so that I can remember this and use it as inspiration another time, but I decieded to share it with you. so, here you go; a little draft for something I don’t know what is yet.

Dear you,

I don’t know how you feel about love, but I hate it. it’s too much for me. it’s so awful, yet so fantastic. and I’m not trying to be kliche or anything, it just happens when I talk to anyone about love. that’s why I try not to do it. because I don’t want to be kliche. I want to be able to Express my feelings in an original way. With love, that’s nearly impossible, especially for me. because i know i’m a very awkward person. I don’t always know what to do or say when others do or say something, but at least I try. that’s the most important thing, right?
now you’re probably wondering why I’m writing to you about this. good question. the honest answer is, I have no idea. maybe i just felt like you’re the only who would understand. although i don’t know you, it just felt right.

i want to be Someone’s someone. Someone’s reason to smile, Someone’s reason to og to that very cafe, instead of any of the other cafes and restaurants in town. see, love makes you selfish. more selfish than you’ve probably ever been, and also probably more selfish than you will ever be. at least that’s what it’s like for me. because right now, i really want someone to hold around, to feel safe With. i want to like someone, and for someone to like me back. for who i am, not for my looks (not that I’m that much to look at anyways…)

i just feel like there’s something missing in me. something… important. something it seems like everybody else has. maybe it’s just my imagination. i guesss that everybody has this little empty Space, except those who are happy together With sommeone. are you feeling an empty Space? it’s OK. one day I’m sure it’ll disappear. trust me. it always Works out fine in the end. because life is like a Movie, except many Movies after each other. they start With one thing, there’s the plot twist, and a happy ending. then it starts over again. until one day, the final ending comes. and for most People, it’s a happy ending, no matter how much misery they’ve been through, no matter how many of their loved ones they’ve lost. because they know that they’ll get to see them again any second now. that’s what I want to think about in the end of my last Movie. all the happy Things that have been, and all the happy Things that will come.

i’m a procrastinator. right now i’m writing to you instead of doing my Spanish homework. but i don’t think it’s a bad thing, not this time. because why would you not do the Things you love? i mean, you can’t always drop the Things you don’t like and just do what you like, but sometimes, you have to give yourself that freedom. the freedom to choose to do something you love, sommething you burn for, or just something you feel like doing right there and then. beacuse you can’t og through life With a Schedule for everything. life does unexcpected Things all the time, and if you’re not prepared for the suprise, i suggest that you stay in bed all day.

and i don’t know how to end this little story of mine in a good way, so let me just tell you that all is good. i’m happy, and it’s another happy endig to another one of my Movies. i’m sure it’s not the last one, so i’ll Write to you again at the end of my Next Movie.