Oh wow, would you look at that… I have a blog! 

I haven’t forgotten about it; I’ve just not had anything to write about. It’s no different today. I just can’t focus on the things I need to focus on right now.

I’m supposed to be doing my homework. We have this assignment due in two days, and today is the only day I’ve really had a lot of time to work on it. So obviously, I have done absolutely nothing at all. I spent three hours watching shit daytime TV shows, eating and basically not doing any  of the things I should be doing. I have been playing some instruments, I have been eating some more, and I have been watching some more TV. I could have spent all that time finishing this damn assignment, so that I won’t have to stress over it tomorrow. I could have at least started it. But I haven’t.

Now, I will try focusing for one hour. We’ll see how far I get, but as long as I just focus on this assignment for the next hour, I will have reached my goal, and then I can relax. Or keep working if I’m ¨in the zone¨.

Wish me luck, guys.

Stay happy, stay awkward

P.S: Procrastination will be the death of me…


Some topics I wanna discuss

Hey guys!

Fun fact about me: I don’t really like discussing. Someone always gets all triggered, someone might get pissed at each other, and my opinions are not strong enough to survive an intense discussion (or, so I think). I do have some opinions that other people can’t change, but I just can’t be bothered to try and make others understand or agree with me. What’s the point? I don’t really care if you disagree with me. I also don’t really care if I disagree with you. That is what it is, it’s not a matter of life or death.

So yeah, I’m not a big fan of discussions. I also do not have a lot of statistics and information ready on my computer for a hefty discussion. However, I kinda wanna discuss some topics with someone. Here’s a quick little list:

  • ¨Racism¨
  • ¨Feminism¨
  • ¨Equality¨

Okay so three things on the list. I have some thoughts and stuff about my views on these topics, and a lot of thoughts on people who share their opinions online. Also, notice how I put all the topics in the little ¨ signs? That’s because I know that different people define these words in different ways, which tends to annoy me (because the definition of them for some people are just plain stupid). For the record; not a whole lot of things actually annoy me, so consider it a special occasion when something does.

In conclusion; these are some things I wanna discuss. Whether I will discuss it in a forum/private chat with someone, or if I’ll write about them here, or if I will do nothing at all, only time will tell. I just wanted you to know I have opinions (if anyone wants to talk about the things, let me know!)

Stay happy, stay awkward

Update(?) from previous post

Hey guys! So first of all: I am sorry for taking so long to ¨update¨ you on the thing I wrote in my last post.

And now for the ¨update¨: I’m sorry to say that I don’t quite remember when things changed, nor how they changed. But things took a turn for the better. So now you know. I’m pretty sure it was because of that time of the month, because guess what: That mood shit’s real for some of us.

Short post, I know, but I juust felt like I had to keep my word.

Oh, and here’s some happy news: I’ve made a new friend! Or, this happened quite a while ago, but I haven’t updated you guys lately… Anyways, yeah, I’ve made a new friend, and he’s really nice and I feel like we have a very special friendship unlike any friendship I’ve ever had before. :3

Other than that, nothing new going on.

See ya!

Stay happy, stay awkward

My phobias

So, I’m actually supposed to do homework, but since I’m the person I am, I’ve been browsing the Internet for useless stuff all day. Suddenly, I figured out that I want to know what phobias I have, if I even hve any. So, I googled ¨phobias¨ and found a web site with many phobias. Many. Since there are so many phobias, you probably have at least one, so here’s the link to the website if you want to figure out your phobias as well. Okay, anyways, here are all the phobias I have:

1. Achluophobia- Fear of darkness

2. Acrophobia- Fear of heights

3. Agoraphobia- Fear of being in crowded, public places like markets

4. Aphenphosmphobia- Fear of being touched (or, this one depends on who the other person is…)

5. Arachnephobia or Arachnophobia- Fear of spiders (MOST DEFINETLY YES I HAVE THIS ONE)

6. Arsonphobia- Fear of fire (although fire also fascinates me.. I might be a psycopath…)

7. Asthenophobia- Fear of fainting or weakness (for me it’s weakness, I’ve actually had nightmares where I couldn’t lift something very light…)

8. Astraphobia or Astrapophobia- Fear of thunder and lightning

9. Athazagoraphobia- Fear of being forgotton or ignored

10. Auroraphobia- Fear of Northern lights (considering that I see the northern lights pretty often, I shouldn’t have this fear, but it just… creeps me out…)

11. Catagelophobia- Fear of being ridiculed

12. Catoptrophobia- Fear of mirrors (when there are many mirrors in one, small place… like dressing rooms in a clothing store… ugh…)

13. Claustrophobia- Fear of confined spaces

14. Coulrophobia- Fear of clowns

15. Demophobia- Fear of crowds (kind of the same thing as number 3)

16. Dishabiliophobia- Fear of undressing in front of someone (not sure how that’s gonna work out when I start doing… stuff… with someone… you know… that stuff…)

17. Ephebiphobia- Fear of teenagers (strange, considering I’m a teenager, right?)

18. Epistaxiophobia- Fear of nosebleeds (fun fact about me: I’ve never had a nosebleed before)

19. Insectophobia – Fear of insects

20. Katsaridaphobia- Fear of cockroaches

21. Obesophobia- Fear of gaining weight (however, sometimes I don’t care…)

22. Ophthalmophobia- Fear of being stared at (probably associated with number 3 and 15)

23. Pediophobia- Fear of dolls

(I removed number 24, which was fear of kissing, since I have now kissed someone and I am not afraid of it xD )

25. Sociophobia- Fear of society or people in general (again, associated with number 3, 15 and 22)

26. Thalassophobia- Fear of the sea

27. Topophobia- Fear of certain places or situations, such as stage fright (stage fright? YES)

28. Xenophobia- Fear of strangers or foreigners (OK, let’s just settle with ¨fear of people I don’t know¨, shall we?

So, those were 28 phobias. I mean, I probably don’t really have all those phobias. However, here’s what I’m very certain of: I freak out in crowded or tiny places, I absolutely HATE spiders, and dolls, clowns, the northern lights and the sea are thing I am NOT a big fan of…

What are your fears? Let me know in the comments, and I’ll talk to you later.

Bye 🙂

Claustrophobia, nervousness and Comfort zones

Hey guys.

Just so you know, I don’t really have claustrophobia, but I have panicked before when I was in a tiny room. Like, one time, in middle school, a couple of friends and I buried each other in the snow. So it was my turn, and my entire body was covered with snow, exept for my mouth and nose, for breathing. Suddenly, I just panicked. My friends laughed, because they thought I was joking, but I  actually started crying. I couldn’t get up either, because the snow was too heavy. So, when they understood that I was being serious, they got me out of thhe snow and hugged me. I can still remember the horrible feeling of not being able to get out of the pile of snow. It makes me really nervous to just think about it.

I get a similar feeling every time I do something embarrasing or have to stay in a place I don’t really want to be. For example: I’m not really a social person. I like hanging out with friends, but I also need some time alone each day, if not, I get this claustrophobic feeling. I’ve experiendced this probably too many times, but I’m still living.

Do you think it’s healthy to push yourself out of your comfort zone? I’m not so sure. I mean, it’s probably good for you to do little things, like raising your hand more often in class, or try and talk more to people who talk to you instead of saying mostly ¨yes¨ and ¨no¨. but when it comes to doing Things that makes you shake by  just thinking about doing them? I don’t know, at least for me, I don’t think it’s really a good thing. See, I just get really nervous, I panick and just want to lock myself into my room for the rest of the day. And I feel like crying. Sometimes I actually cry too. And it feels awful, because I’m crying about nothing. Nothing at all.

Do you ever feel like this? It would make me feel a lot  better if I knew that other people are like this too. I don’t really know why I wrote this post, I  just felt like I had to get this out of my system. Kind of grumpy today? Yep.

Well, see you next time. Or something like that, because we won’t see each other, but you know what I mean…


Bucket list

Hey guys! So, today I just felt like writing down some things I want to do in my life. I don’t know, I just felt like doing something different here. If you have something you want to do before you die or something like that, leave a comment. Enoy. 🙂

Things I want to do before I die:

1. Go on a hot air balloon ride
2. Go skydiving
3. Travel the world with a bunch of friends
4. Get really good at golfing (or at least try to…)
5. Go to a folk high school for a year (if you don’t know what it is, you can check out this link: )
6. Play in a band
7. Write a book (I also want to become a writer, so…)
8. Learn to like coffee (that’s what the cool people drink, right?)
9. Try exotic new food (although I’m really picky…)
10. Learn to surf (my balance level is basically zero)
11. Try water skiing (again, balance might be a little problem)
12. Dive in The Great Barrier Reef (even though the ocen scares me)
13. Celebrate thanksgiving in the USA (we don’t celebrate it here)
14. Try dog sledding
15. Travel a lot with my family
16. See at least one of the world’s wonders (plus many other great buildings and places)
17. Basically stop being such a wimp (stop being afraid of new things, become more impulsive etc.)

I hope you liked this list of things I want to do before I die. I hopefully have a whole lot of years left on this planet, so I’ll get a fair chance of doing some of these things.
Well, that’s it for now, I’ll see you later (not literary but yeah…)

Bye :3