Music as a living?

I love to play the flute, as you may know by now. I’m part of a “group” where we play folk music. There are only grown ups in the “group”, except me and another guy who is one year younger than me. Some of us play the fiddle, some play the flute (me and one other), one plays bass guitar, one plays guitar and one plays accordion. I really enjoy playing the flute in the “group”.

People tell me I’m really good at playing, I’ve been playing for six or seven years. The principal of the culture school (you can take classes in playing an instrument or theater etc. when you’re not at school) even told me that she may nominate me for a prize where you get money to improve your playing skills, for example by traveling to another country and learn about their culture within music. She said that she had noticed that I had improved a lot over the past time. And then she said I had to think about wether I want to make a living out of playing the flute.

Our “group” had a rehearsal today, and while we were playing, I started thinking about how it would be if I played the flute for a living. I just don’t know. I really love doing it, but I’m not sure if I want to do it to make money. I think I just want it as a hobby. But still, there’s a part of me that kind of wants to go further with it.

I need advice from you. I guess it can be kind of difficult to give advice about this. I’m just clueless. Any advice would be great right now.


Quick post

Just a quick blog post before I go to bed:

After I posted the “walking in syrup”-post I felt a bit better. I also felt much better after playing the flute. It usually helps when I’m upset. I guess there’s a reason why I love music. It helps out a lot when I’m sad. 🙂

Walking in syrup

Have you ever felt like nothing goes your way? That people don’t understand you, and don’t agree with anything you say? That you’re walking in syrup?

That’s my feeling today. I got a text saying that it was an extra work out today (in taekwon-do, a martial art). I really didn’t want to go at first, but I’m glad I did. It helped out a lot. I just feel like shit today. Like I can’t manage to focus properly or something.

It has been like this the whole day. It feels like I can’t do anything as good as I usually can. It’s like walking in syrup. The only thing I feel kind of good at today is playing the flute. But still, it feels like there’s something wrong with that, too.

I just need a break, I guess. A break from people. That’s no problem, though. I’ll just stay in my bedroom for a while.
I’ll feel better soon, I hope.

Let me know in the comments if you’ve ever felt like that before. How did you handle it?
How do you feel today? Let me know, I’m lonely, but I don’t want to use my voice. Nobody understands me when I try to talk. Not today. Maybe tomorrow.

My first followers!

Yesterday, when I had just gone to bed, when I got a notification on my phone (I downloaded the phone app for WordPress) and I had a follower on my blog!

Today, when I woke up, I had another notification on my phone. I had another follower! So now I have two followers on my blog! Thanks! It means a lot to me, I actually didn’t think that I would get two followers this fast. It really made me happy to see.

Anyway, if anybody have any tips to my blog, leave a comment on this blog. It can be tips about what to blog about, design on my blog etc. Anyway, I have to go now, see ya!

Jellybeans all alone

I’m the kind of person that visits friends and sleep over at their houses. People never visit me. I got a box with lots of Jellybeans for my birthday (wich was in May), and I was going to save them until my friends came over. Now I’m sitting here, eating Jellybeans all alone because my friends never visit me. What’s so wrong about visiting me? I mean, I visit them all the time when they ask, but they never visit me. I’m starting to get tired of it. I’ve missed out on a lot of Saturdays with my family lately (we usually eat pizza together and watch TV), but that’s gonna end now. If someone ask me if I want to sleep over at their house this weekend, I’m gonna say no. Because I need a weekend at home. With my family. Without doing anything special. 🙂


Hey guys. My name is Awkwardgirl99. I’m going to remain anonymous, and I’m probably not gonna blog a lot. Just once in a while.I’m not English (or anything like that), so sorry if I spell something wrong.

So, anyway, I’m just gonna blog about my life, wich can be pretty awkward. So, enjoy my blog, or don’t. It’s your choice, I’m gonna keep blogging no matter how few or how many that reads it.